Growing up, I was obsessed with starting from scratch.
When I played NBA 2K, I’d play for a few seasons, then suddenly feel this urge to reset—to do it all over again. A few seasons later, the cycle would repeat. I’d end up with zero championships, and by then, it was time to buy the next edition of the game and start the loop once more. You see the pattern.
I was sold on the idea that everything had to start perfectly. If I started something and it didn’t go exactly in my favor, I’d scrap it. I’d throw away my progress and time as if they meant nothing.
Give me a guess how many times I’ve redesigned my website…
People told me I lacked consistency. I told them they were wrong: I am remarkably consistent at starting over.
But why is that the case? Why do I find more comfort in a “New Game” than in a finished one?
My conclusion is this: starting over is a safety net. If you never finish, you can never fail.
That is exactly why I’m publishing this post. I am fighting the urge to delete this draft and wait for a “better” first post idea. I’m finally learning to apply the rule: “Just do it, even if it sucks.” I am trying something that doesn’t require perfection. I’m trying to enjoy the moment of being messy and visible. For the first time, I’m not playing for a perfect season; I’m just staying on the court until the final buzzer.
This is my first post. It’s not perfect, but it’s published. And that’s a championship in itself.